so much has happened this week lord, so much that i have not been able to catch up with you here. thank you for teaching me long ago how to practice your presense, so that i do not depend on formal sit-downs to stay in coversation with you. although sometimes i do feel guilty like i have neglected you, but i constantly feel your presence in everything.
so like i said, a lot has been happening. a lot that is good and it is almost overwhelming. now it all makes sense what you told me the other day about showing me strategies on a need to know basis. i haven’t been able to sleep well these past few days because my mind is constantly thinking over the ideas that you have been showing me, and i sense that we have not even begun. imagine how overloaded i would be if you showed me everything at once.
and then there is the exciting journey that my wife and i have begun and its so cool how you have worked everything out. lol i want to throw my head back in laughter at those moments when i fear and worry and angst over things. lol what a clown i must look like to you. i bet you have a lot of smh moments at me.
its all pouring out now. i feel like a giddy school boy pouring out his adventures to the crush of his life. i am happy lord, you have been good more than i hoped for. i see better now glimpses of what tasha cobbs and nicki minaj told me you would do. gosh, especially nicki minaj, she was spot on lord. everything she said is what you have been doing these few months.
i want to jump on you and dance around you. i am excited. i am giddy. and i am grateful. you have been so good, you have been so true to your word. thank you for what is yet to come. thank you for the overflow. thank you for making a way for our boundaries to overflow. thank you because we are not alone. thank you because you walk every day with us, thank you for your patience when i am so full of doubt and fear. even now, i tremble at the blessings you are bringing. i fear that i am not worthy or able. but i sense your peace and your presence so i am thankful, Abba. XOXO
lol. i missed you to my child. but like you said, practising my presence is a whole lot more rewarding than scheduled moments. everything has its place and purpose, so do not fret.
i am excited that you are excited. this is the kind of life i have for all my children. a life that makes them giddy like kids. i have called you into glory, glory that is not dependent on your level of effort, but only on my goodness and faithfulness. See before you were born i already called you and named you and blessed you. i told you before your life on earth is simply a slower timeline of your completed future. that is why i always want you to never fear because there is nothing to fear. you already won. you already conquered. you already were victorious.
what you are seeing is not even the beginning of what i will do for you. overflow is not just a spillage. it is what happens when the ocean overflows its banks. it is both the force and extent behind tsunamis and floods. the same way that bodies of water overflow cities is the way that my blessing will overflow in your life. it will be more than you can imagine. it will be something you have never seen before. it will blow your mind.