This is what I heard in my spirit yesterday. And today.
I am still longing for the voice and words of God. I think the holy spirit is trying to reignite the flame. Even though I miss the sound of God, I sense that the silence is not a result of his absence. Rather it is because I have not fully healed.
Today I tried to listen to Tasha and Nicki again- but I felt a sense of betrayal. Tasha and Nicki brought me the words of God’s plan for me in 2018 and I have been running with it. But the month of April made every word seem like a lie. And something about me, once my trust is broken, it’s hard to trust again. Especially when I believed you absolutely.
I believed God absolutely. And I felt like he lied. And I felt betrayed. And I broke up with him. But now I miss him. Because even though he broke me, he is still the only one that can mend me. So i have been longing again for our intimacy but I have not been able to connect.
So yesterday and today, I heard this in my spirit: Flirt with me again.
Faith is Made of This 